“The only reason you should ever look back is to see how far you’ve come.”

My Transformation Tuesday goes out to one of the toughest pictures I’ve ever posted publicly…

March 2010 represents my dark days.  My eyes may have been open, and my heart may have been beating…  but I was dead inside. ED was killing me.. physically and emotionally.  I remember taking this picture.. I didn’t think I was too skinny.  Now looking back.. this picture brings tears to my eyes.  It represents the self hatred and emptiness that suffocated me every second of every day.

May 2014 was taken right after Memorial Day Weekend this year.  Please note I don’t consider myself fat in this picture.  A lot people questioned why I was doing the Advocare 24 Day Challenge and I often got the “you don’t need to lose weight”.. frankly I don’t disagree with them.  I didn’t think I needed to “lose weight”.  I started the Advocare 24 Day Challenge for the sole purpose of becoming a healthier, better me.  Memorial Weekend definitely threw me for a ride (and i loved every second of it).. but by Monday, my body needed a break. So I decided to start my challenge…

June 2014 is Day 25 of the 24 Day Challenge.  I truly have never felt better. Physically.. yes, but more importantly mentally.  I have never felt more motivated to keep pushing… keep fighting.  Every muscle gain is a ‘fuck you’ to ED.  It’s a step towards freedom.

Your body is a masterpiece.  Treat it that way!